Friday, July 20, 2007
Birthday blue
1:16 AM
Feeling real sucks. As birthday approaching, the more im goona be EMO. Shan did try to knock some sense and talk mi out of it. Previous birthdays make me sick of it. Never been a successful. Disappointing for all. As what she said, birthday is a special day and marks the day of birth. Sounds right but mine is totally different. Just merely a day to pass for me. Not looking forward at all. From two years ago , my mind is set. Just chat with a couple of friends and i realised i have MIA for quite some time. The conversation was kind of stiff. No longer that close. Sad to say that but gonna accept the fact. Think 90% of my friends i had no contact at all, bad sign but perhap we heading all different directions. Used to so close, one day may just nod of head or smile if we happen to see each other in future. My life is either study or work. NO MORE! These two always keep me busy and keep my mind clear from anythings that is not related. Perhap is because of getting used to busy lifestyle and not used to relaxing lifestyle. Things sort of moving in a slow rate. Guess i will never take a break or whatever. Im fated to lead a busy lifestyle. My mistake of taking 3 days off. Should go for holiday instead. 22 hours to my birthday. Lols , wondering why i still have the mood to do the countdown stuff but just to fill up my entry with words. sincere smile =)
